Writing Away

I remember one time when I was little I had this big birthday party that I was so excited to go to! Well all week my mom told me I needed to clean my room or there would be consequences. "Maricel, if dont clean ur room you wont be going to your friends birthday party on Saturday..." I kept putting it off and putting it off till the very last minute. I tried my damnedest to clean efficiently and quickly Saturday morning, I did the bare minimum and crossing my fingers hoping it would pass inspection. but of course it did not pass inspection and mom said I wouldnt be going to the birthday. I didnt believe her, so I got ready anyways and when it was time to leave, it didnt happen. OH MY GOODNESS the way that I was crying and screaming and thrashing around you would have thought it was the end of the world. Well to me it was. My world was crashing, my mom was ruining my life. All my friends would be there and I would miss out on everything. I remember the feelings that I had that ...

After a long day of emotional drainage and now i cant sleep, this is whats i do. youtube songs that relate to my crisis! 

I don't know what it about this time of year that makes people want to wax my brows off. like last year around this same time...charli waxed half my eye brow off...not a big deal. it wasn't that bad. well, this year. its happened again. (and no it wasn't charli this time) let me just start from the beginning. i got sick Thursday morning, my boss sends me home because im vomiting every 10-15 mins, i cant keep anything down. so of course i claim that im not sick but no one believes me. so i have to go. so Friday rolls around, im still sick. fortunately i only vomit once throughout the entire day. probably because i decided to eat an entire box of mac and cheese? mid afternoon i start to feel okay. im starting to get stir crazy so i decide im well enough to run some small errands. i returned a movie, drove pass some town homes that had potential (come to find out, way over our budget) got some ice cream (two scoops!) and debated on getting my eyebrows waxed. funds are tight ri...

i am learning to balance life's challenges. its certainly not easy and its not always fun. they say "when you come to work, leave your personal issues at the door" its also said "leave work at work, don't bring it home" but what happens when your work IS your life? I'm also learning that i cant  put too much on my plate. I've never really had to balance too much in my life. I should have been but I've never really put forth a lot of effort on making sure all points in my life are balanced. I just went with the flow. it was either, work was going great and my home life wasn't, or my home life was going good and work wasn't. Now, its different. i want every area in my life to be good. i don't want just one area to okay, while the other falls apart. its a lot harder than i thought it would. making sure i make time for the important people in my life, staying focused at work and spending my money on needs and not wants. life revolves arou...

Phew!!! Talk about running full speed ahead for almost a month now!!! It's been nothing but go go go! Transitioning into my new job has been great but getting on to a regular sleep pattern has been kicking my booty!! Im loving my new job! My boss lady is really awesome and laid back! We share an office so we are in close quarters for the whole 6 hours of our work day! Im glad we have a good relationship! That something I'm very grateful for! My birthday weekend celebration was amazing! One of the best birthdays I've had in a long time! My man friend took me to the Rangers game Friday night and four of my other close friends joined us! Jim & Corinne, Melissa & Brandon and her son Maddox!! After the game they had fireworks and they were so pretty! It was like the 4th of July all over again! BUT BETTER! After the Rangers game and the fire works we made our way over to Melissa and Brandon's house to continue the party....Needless to say.... I don't remember mu...

These past five months have been so difficult! But things are finally looking up!! I got a job out in Dallas and a NEW CAR!! My mom also got a new car! No worries, they still have the van that my  dad will now have to drive! It's a good thing he works close to home because the van is on it's last leg of life. It's on life support!  I am so relieved to have a job! Finding a job has been so difficult! So now my next step is to move closer to work! Once I get settled into my job, I will start to look for a place of my own! I can't wait to be back out there! Living with my parents was supposed to be temporary but I had so many road blocks that it turned into a longer stay than I had planned for!  I couldn't have done it without the support of my family and all my friends! I am so grateful to have people that will stick by thru thick and thin!  Even with all this negative energy around me, I was still able to find happiness!  My birthday is right around the corner an...