Writing Away

Ive been trying to blog about something for the past couple of days...but i cant figure anything out...i mean i have plenty of interesting things i can blog about but they seem to depressing or unimportant to blog about... ooh my life is really starting to annoy me!

Ah, so I'm 25. Hasn't been too bad. I've been so busy. Struggling at work, school is on overload, social life is deteriorating, I feel like my body is falling apart due to thrown out back, hips out of place, my lumps and bumps are irritated, sinus problems along with allergies, my eyeballs hurt, my eyes are swollen, being a girl sucks once every month, I've gained weight but I'm on the fast track to my skeleton figure, but due to loosing weight my C boobs are disappearing everyday! My boobs were the last thing to arrive once I gained and now that I'm on a rapid weight lose program, of course they are going to be the first thing to go. But hey, at least now I can say I know what it's like to have boobs. But not at the cost of having a size 10 gut to go along with it! (i hope to somehow erase that part of my life out of my head) None of my clothes fit right bc I'm so in between on every piece of clothing that I own, I don't sleep well, I sweat easily, ...

So, I was all about getting a new car. yeah! Fully loaded, black on black with all the possible options that you can add to one car. it was going to put me back a few dollars, but hey, i dont mind spending money on something that i love! i would rather spend money on something nice than put money towards something that i dont enjoy. well with that said.....i suddenly had a change of heart. went and signed up for school spur of the moment. got approved financial aid and a nice new pink laptop. and now i start school august 31st. my orientation is this Thursday , I have no idea what im going to wear. I have also signed Lola up to be a therapy dog. Paws across Texas. I cant wait till she turns two so we can start her new job. so in the mean time Lola and i are working on getting all her certification and pass the evaluations in order for her to become a therapy dog. so let me get back to what i dont understand.....i choose school over getting a new car.......ummmm....whats wrong ...

Since my new job, my party life has come to some what of a stop. It's totally fine with me except i do miss my old life every now and then. For example my friend jim had his birthday bash on a tuesday night. i went to dinner had a few drink but the real fun started at 10p. everyone was heading to boomer jacks and dukes for drinks, dancing and socializing. but of course i couldnt go because i have to work in the morning. i could have gone, but im determinded to stay focused on my job and do well. since im so focused on my job, for pay period 14 and 15 i got ranked as VIP sales rep for my division, VIP sales rep for my unit and number 1 sales rep for pay 15. my picture is hanging on the wall by the RVP's office! its amazing! im so proud of myself! im also a little shocked at myself as well. I know i have great potential but sometimes its really hard to believe in myself. this job has saved my life. saved me in so many ways i cant even explain. i don't have the desir...

...to my blackberry! it can't put the damn thing down! i want to so badly but i cant, if i do, then I'm for sure going to miss out on something, i don't know what id miss out on since its not going anywhere, but i know i would. what have i done?! the best decision in my life is becoming my obsession. is that a bad thing? at least its my blackberry....it could be food (which comes in a very close 2nd) jeans, shoes, purses, makeup, liquor, beer, men...the list could go on but i think you get my point... I think I have a problem (other than my blackberry)....I am so torn up about a past relationship I haven't been able to move on from it. And this relationship ended badly, like I'm talking seriously bad. I don't know if it's something that Ive worked up in my head, but I cant get a grip on things and just let it go! I'm a very smart person, i know when I'm being rejected and I know how to stay away from being hurt. I can sense when things are going to...

I'm driving home today from work...i decided to stop and get some food before heading home. I really didn't need to stop and spend money on food, but i just wanted to stuff my face with some unhealthy food today. it was a ruf day and rather than stopping by somewhere for happy hour, i thought id just eat. so im ordering....i notice the weather is starting to look REALLY bad, but of course im eating so im not paying attention to anything else but getting my food into my mouth....out of no where it starts to turn and its like tornado like weather! im on 377 just passin the walmart ...my mom works there, i should stop and just hang out there till the storm passes...nah, ill make it....lets just make sure to call the house to make sure someone is home so im not home alone during this storm...call no one answers...call my little brother....nothing...call my dad nothing...finally call my sister (and remember I'm still driving and eating) my sister picks up.....yeah i shou...

....with $150,00?! yeah that's right....so i happen to land this account at work....$$300,000+. I'm still not sure what to think of this....but its true. i got the account, but since its such a huge account i have had to split it with a prim. rep. its better than nothing. i mean O M G! i knew this job had potential to make tons of money, but i didn't know just how much. i cant wrap my brain around how much money this actually is! i have never in my entire life had this much money at one time EVER! after this account i don't think ill go back to work for while..no im totally kidding. of course ill keep working! ill be driving my caddy any day now along with sportin my new boobs! im so excited! although...my chest has kind of grown on its own. i might not need it...but back to the money.....what does one do with this kind of money? pay bills, buy a car, take a vacation, new wardrobe, all new shoes, purses....one might invest....put it into savings....but......we all kn...