Skip to main content

Always playing catch-up!

Well its 2016. And I have not blogged ANYTHING! Oops. It's been a challenging last 1.5 years to say the least.
2015 wasn't my year and so far 2016 hasn't been much better. Mostly personal. Work is my escape go to. I actually don't mind being at work. Not that I love my job, but I don't mind being there. (sometimes) Because work isn't as bad as my personal life.
Life is juggling everything and keeping everything and everyone at a balance. And when one part is off balance, something somewhere else is always better. So my personal life is down, so that makes my work life, more enjoyable than my personal life. Like a see-saw. Personal life down, work life up. And then there's everything else in-between. Family and friends and my Social life are all in-between everything else. Making sure I stay in touch with my family. Making sure I hang out with and be a good friend to small amount of friends I have. Maintaining.

My work life is going fine. I'm mostly just maintaining what I'm doing. Sept 17 2016 will mark 4 years for me at my current job. That's the longest I've made it any job. I worked at Kohl's for around 3 years. That's my 2nd longest job I've kept.
I enjoy my job and what I do. I do my job and I do it well. My job is never the same. There's always a challenge, and its different every week. It helps that I'm not doing the same thing over and over. My job position that I'm currently in, isn't something I originally wanted to be in. But I excelled at it, and have done a good job. Don't get me wrong, there are days when I want to pull all my hair and scream at the top of my lungs. That's when I go eat something or go shopping for things I don't need.

All relationship are difficult. Family, Friends, marriage. And so far, I have realized that I am not good at any of them. My family puts up with me  because they are my family and they don't have a choice. Friends, you can pick and choose who you want your friends to be. Who you want to see the most or who you'd rather not see as much. Marriage is a little of both worlds. You make someone your friend you enjoy the most and they are your family. Marry your best Friend (they said). But I don't always get along with my best friends. I don't always get along with my Husband, I don't always get along with my family.

With that being said, life is not easy. Life is not a box of chocolates. Friends come and go, some stick around longer than others, family will always be your family and marriage is freakin' hard.

Popular posts from this blog

Cultivating relationships

Maintaining relationships demands effort; it's a mutual journey. Each party contributes, and amidst this exchange, bonds form—be it friendships or deeper connections. Some relationships necessitate more investment; sometimes, it feels like you're carrying the weight alone, striving to sustain the connection. Personally, I've struggled with nurturing friendships; perhaps due to youthful ignorance, where life felt boundless, consequences seemed distant, and self-centeredness prevailed. As age brings maturity, many friendships naturally drift away amid life's chaos and the challenges of adulthood. Reflecting on my past interactions often astonishes me; how did I manage any healthy relationships back then? Truthfully, I didn't. Those who I once considered friends, or who considered me as such, have vanished, leaving behind only fragmented memories—thanks, memory loss. Although forgetfulness might seem a blessing, the impressions we leave behind persist. This notion unne...
Read more

I'm being selfish

This week has been a whirlwind of emotions that I struggle to articulate. Attending the funeral of a childhood friend's father, who passed away unexpectedly, opened floodgates of nostalgia and sadness. We shared a bond through our mutual love for horseback riding, receiving our first ponies almost simultaneously. While we've drifted apart as adults, the news hit me hard. Our parents, similar in age and pursuits, faced the unimaginable loss of a husband, father, grandfather, brother, and friend. Witnessing my friend's grief and contemplating my own future in their shoes brought tears of empathy and fear. The inevitability of losing loved ones, a reality we often push aside, looms ominously. Reflecting on my relationship with my family, I realize how it's evolved over the years. From distant ties to a profound dependency, I now find solace and support in them daily. When my father suffered a heart attack, I was thrust into a surreal state of emotional numbness, only to cr...
Read more
Wow, it’s been a while since my last post in April! This year has been a whirlwind—it’s incredible how time flies. Big milestone: I turned 40! I still can’t believe it. I don’t feel 40, though; my mind says 20, but my body sometimes feels 70. 😅 I was lucky to celebrate with my family and closest friends, and my parents surprised me with my very first Louis Vuitton. She’s stunning! I also completed my MSF course, which means I can legally ride my motorcycle now! I recently took my Triumph Bonneville T120 on its first solo ride to work. It was nerve-wracking but exhilarating, and I’m hooked! My next dream bike is the Triumph Scrambler, so I can join my husband on some dirt road adventures. Unfortunately, I got hit with a really bad bug and was in bed for a week, which wiped out all my PTO for the year. This year marked our 10th wedding anniversary, and my parents gifted us a trip to Italy! With no more PTO left, we’ve had to push it to next year, but honestly, I feel good about having ...
Read more