These past few month have been a whirl wind of changes! Its like my life cant get enough of it! I would love nothing more than to just have time to relax. But of course that isnt going to happen. I miss blogging. I miss my friends, I miss my party life and most of all I miss being carefree. Im growing up and adult life isnt what it's all cracked up to be, but I guess I cant stop it from happening. I never thought the day would come, but now that its just over the horizon,I can see it smell it feel it, Im not sure I want to it to happen. I want to make more money, I want a house, I want a nicer car...so many thing I want and cant have. Now that sucks! Im over having people in my life butting their nose in where it doesnt belong or judging me. I am my own person. I am confident in where I in my life and who i share it with. I dont care what others think. I wish I could be more of a bitch and stand up for myself, but honestly, I dont have it in me to be a bitch to other people. I am not mean hearted. i believe that what you put out into the universe it what you get back. So far, I have yet to see that. but im crossing my fingers. :)
I’m really struggling with watching my parents grow older. My mom’s memory has declined a lot, and walking has become difficult for her. She’s not active anymore—she mostly stays at home, only doing small chores around the house. She has very little motivation to do anything beyond that. My dad takes care of so much for her, and I try to keep her going by spending time with her, but our conversations feel so different now. As for my dad, his health is okay—not great, but manageable. I’ve mentioned before how hard it is to watch him face the physical limitations that come with age. He’s always been the kind of dad who could do it all—fix anything, carry anything, help with anything. He’s been my rock, always there to support me. I don’t think he ever imagined he’d still be helping his 40-year-old daughter with Jeep mods—but knowing him, I’m sure he secretly loves it. My dad and I are both facing new health challenges right now. I’m scared—but thankfully, mine isn’t life-threatening, as...