I haven't been keeping up with my blogging because I'm nervous to put my life on blast, especially since it's involving other people. My thoughts are private but at the same time I want to scream it from a roof top and just get everything off my chest. I'm not a confrontational person, so for me to put my life on blast is hard. I guess you would say I'm some what conservative with the events in my life, even though I act nothing like it. I secretly fear what other people would think of me. I carry myself in a way that's carefree and if you know me then you know that I am just that. I need to suck it up and just do what I love. WRITE! But I say that and I'm pretty sure I'm just going to go start a secrete blog and vent my entire life out loud! Maybe.
Maintaining relationships demands effort; it's a mutual journey. Each party contributes, and amidst this exchange, bonds form—be it friendships or deeper connections. Some relationships necessitate more investment; sometimes, it feels like you're carrying the weight alone, striving to sustain the connection. Personally, I've struggled with nurturing friendships; perhaps due to youthful ignorance, where life felt boundless, consequences seemed distant, and self-centeredness prevailed. As age brings maturity, many friendships naturally drift away amid life's chaos and the challenges of adulthood. Reflecting on my past interactions often astonishes me; how did I manage any healthy relationships back then? Truthfully, I didn't. Those who I once considered friends, or who considered me as such, have vanished, leaving behind only fragmented memories—thanks, memory loss. Although forgetfulness might seem a blessing, the impressions we leave behind persist. This notion unne...