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My like for playing poker is turning into an obsession. Now that ive learned {let me rephrase that, I'm 'learning'} how to play! {i am oooh so proud of myself i can check that off my list! CHECK!} I have it on my iPhone and I play allllllllllllllllllllllll the time! I can't even put it down while I'm driving, which is probably just as bad as texting and driving. {oops} its seriously thrilling! I don't play with real money and I still haven't been to an actual casino. For the most part it's probably a good thing because I'd for sure be broke while picking up a gambling addiction. {well thats just awesome!} I've been fortunate enough to have friends that have poker nights and invite me along to play. Sometimes for fair amounts of cash but most of the time, just for chips. {and not the kind that you eat} They are all more advanced and a lot faster than myself, but they suck it up and let a newbie into the game. It's difficult for me to have a ...

Ive been going back and forth about my decision about school. Did i make the right move? did i mess up my chances on having a stabile career for myself? Should I have just stuck with what i know? Well, while talking to a friend of mine today he reassured me that it was okay to make the move I made. If im unhappy with my classes it will show in my attitude and my work. and he's right. its like when youre in an uphappy relationship or unsatisfied with a job. you dont want to see the person ur with because they dont make you happy or if its ur job then you dont feel the need to have to work hard. but he did make a good point. the type of work that im looking for wont be here in texas. :-( but i guess ill cross that bride when i get to it. for now, im at peace with the decision that ive made and im grateful for my friends advice that he gave me. do what makes me happy. you only get one chance at life! My  Anxiety and panic attacks have been getting worse. It's getting to the poi...

If this isnt considered stressfull, then I dont know what is!  School is really stressing me out. I mean honestly, who needs it? I've made more money than most people that have gone to college and have their degrees. Granted, I dont have any thing to show for, but I did at one point. Im young, I'm single, I dont have anyone to contend with but myself. I should be rolling around in my own wealth. It's not even funny. But thats not the point. The point is, IM GOING TO BE IN SCHOOL TILL IM FUCKING OLD! (see theres the ' revamp ' im talkin' about) I already have three years of school under my belt and now I have to go for another 4 years!? Seriously? By the time I graduate, Im going to be 31. (well 30 if you want to references back to my one yr younger  blog) Is that seriously when Im going to start my career? Am I really going to school for a legit degree? Should I have just stuck it out and got my degree in Business/ Marketing/ Advertising? But I honestly hate...

Our matching tattoo's The peace dove tattoo meaning is to show that you are finally one with yourself and have forgiven others for the wrong they have done towards you as well as to forgive yourself from your mistakes and shortfalls. Alicia's fresh Ink! A dove with a palm branch in its beak represents a  man's victory over death and a new chance with life. The dove tattoo can be used in anyway you want. It can represent dedication and loyalty . It can represent love, hope and peace. You can take on its religious meaning or it can be subtly used as an image dedicated to someone in the afterlife. However you wear your dove tattoo make sure it means a lot to you as its meaning will be with you for the rest of your life… My fresh ink    an hour later after removing the bandage Alicia and I have been talking about getting our tattoos for a long time and we finally decided to get it over with tonight. Our adventure to set out for our tattoo's ended up b...

It's really irritating when you count on someone to be somewhere and then at the last minute they decide to act stupid and not show up. i understand that things happen, you forget, you over book yourself, you wanna go a date with a boy or someone else is having a bigger party, but to bail out of it by not being truthful is what makes me angry. all i've ever asked of anyone is to just be honest with me, just communicate with me! thats all ive ever asked! i know it can be hard to have to be truthful, its embarrassing and i understand not wanting to hurt someone's feelings, but its better to tell the truth rather than beating around the bush or just straight up lying about it. i can relate because back in the day (i was pretty darn selfish and didnt care), i would committee myself to everyone's plans and then at the last minute finally make up my mind and go in another direction. i dont do that anymore (too much) because people need to know whats going on and its better ju...

Awesome Game tonight Mavs!  Lets go Mavericks, LETS GO!! American Airlines Center  Watch Party! Full House! Yah! Wearing my MAVS T-shirt! Tomorrow I will go buy the official 2011 Champions T-shirt!  **THE TIME IS NOW** So proud of our MAVS!!!  WE ARE THE CHAMPIONS!  For our win in Miami!

Noun reluctance  ( uncountable ) Unwillingness  to do something. Hesitancy  in taking some action. ( physics )  That property of a  magnetic circuit  analogous to  resistance  in an  electric circuit . It's always been strange to me when people ask me " have u always known u were adopted?" I respond with a blank look... " it's kind of obvious when my parents are white and I'm brown... Cause for some obvious signs" I have never felt the urge to find my birth parents. It's been something that just hasn't been an issue in my life. I don't have a desire to know my birth mother, i don't care to find out if I have biological siblings (which I know for a fact that I do bc my biological brother contacted me first.) which then leads me to think... Well if I have other siblings and they are still over in the Philippines, then why was i the only one given up? Granite my live is amazing and I can't imagine my life being any different and I...

Wouldn't it be cool to take a year off ur life? To be one year younger than what u thought u really were? Well I am an example of just that. To go to puerto Rico all u need is a photo id for American citizens. But to get back into the states from p/r American citizens need a photo id and ur American birth certificate. I have both, so now worries, right? Not so much... Since I'm adopted my mom has all my paper work. I informed her that I would need my birth certificate to get back into the states. She, being protective of my paper work, will not give me my American birth certificate. So now I have to apply for a legal copy of my birth certificate. In doing so I stumbled across my original birth certificate from the Philippines. My American birth certificate says I was born september 10th 1984. The date of birth I have always known. BUT my Filipino birth certificate clearly says that i was born at 10am weighting in at 7lbs on september 10th ( this is the real kicker) 1985!!!  Om...

So I woke up this morning...my friend passed out on the floor and my other friend next to me in bed. It must have been a good night. And that, it was! (dont think dirty! it wasnt like that!) But not only was it a good night, but the fact that I went to bed at 430am....Here I am WIDE awake on a Saturday morning. All I can think about is blogging. Im a little disappointed in myself. My last month of blogging wasnt what I normally do. I wasnt writing like I usually do. None of my blogs have been funny or witty or desperately sad or truly full of drama. They have just been....normal? Is this what my life has come to? BORING? Is this what life is like after depression? You just become normal? I dont know. Im at a lose for words. I dont know how to answer this question. Does anyone? OK, so you want the truth? Nah, Im not ready and neither will anyone else... Why you ask? Because what I have to say is shocking. Well then whats the point in blogging? There isnt really. Just the satisfaction of...

My Chicago trip is slowly approaching. My grandpa is turning 89 (i think) {correction: he's 90}. I will meet my 'grandmother' Betty. I've never met her before. I've seen her in pictures, but thats it. It's been 5 years since Ive seen my moms side of the family. A lot has happened since then. Obviously since I am just now meeting my grandpas 3rd wife. Im not close to any of my 27 cousins. I use to be, but life happens and we all lost touch over the years. I have 2nd cousins that I've never even met. I feel bad for my mother. All the other cousins are close and know one another. But not our family. We live so far, so its not like we can just drop by for holidays or birthdays. I've never know what its like to have relatives close by. Most of my family lives up north so they all get together for holidays. My immediate family is the only family here in Texas. When I was younger (WAY younger) my Aunt lived in Prosper and we lived in Longview. It was still a ...

...for my Mavs!! Come on Mavs lets do this and win!! Yah! Super excited for the Mavs to have this win under their belt! It would be so awesome if we got this! Hopefully my Rangers will keep up the okay work (hasnt been that great but its better) and we'll see how football season goes. Last year was my first year to pay any attention to football...maybe this year they will surprise us! Getting ready for the win!  A little papa's to celebrate a win! and of course Steph would have a 'Los Mavs' tshirt!  Pluckers to watch the game on the big Screens!   So happy Beth made it out! That was two days in a row I got to see her lovely face! that never happens!  Larry and his victory drinksss! ha ha ha! My sister has been in town and its been fun! We saw Hangeover II. It was good, but the first one is still at the top of my list. My sister and I are obsessed with the outlet stores in Allen, mostly because of the coach store. That place is like Heaven on earth.  ...