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Sleep...please take me away to LA LA Land....

It's almost 230a and I'm still wide awake! I have to work tomorrow! Awake at 630! For some reason I'm really anxious about tomorrow! I'm not sure why?! Is it because I got a new bright pink gym bag and I'm super excited to use it to go work out? Or is it because I'm so excited to finally have an iPhone?! I think it might be a mixture of both. So today wasn't so bad. I got to re-program. Although, I still hung out with Charli, my re-programing wasn't so bad. I still got to concentrate on myself and still committee myself to Charli woo and mara-boo time. I'm also excited that I get to sit at my new desk tomorrow! It took forever to get my desk situation set up, but its finally there!! But they have my computer screen facing out, so everyone can see what I'm doing on my computer! Not cool, how am I suppose to be on facebook?? hahahaha, totally kidding! That's what my phone is for! ;-) (i hope my boss doesnt read this!) 'YOURE FIRED!' hahahaha!

I totally discovered a new song today! It's by Colbie Caillat called I Never Told You. OMG!! This totally sums up my entire relationship with my ex. Seriously? I was like this is a cut to the heart! And its so my love story with my ex. Makes tears comes to eyes, but I pulled thru and I havent broken down....yet! Amazing! But, I wasn't too terribly sad today. I felt like this song sang straight to my heart, 'HELLO! LOSER FACE! you are are totally broken for life' is what my heart is screaming at me. urgh! What a sad little life. Oh well, guess I'll just keep walking thru my life. Fist pumps are my best friends.

okay, sleep...please take over me NOW!

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