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so! I'm sitting at work, on my lunch. listening to Adam Lambert your entertainment and its actually not a bad song. i should be working on my 5 papers that i still haven't finished for school, but we all know that's not going to happen! lol. i need to work on school I'm just not motivated to do it at all! i know once i get pass these two classes it will be more fun.

i so heart my iPhone! i cant imagine my life w/out it now! i mean how could i have gone this long without it?! how can a person function without everything in the palm of their hand? it just doesn't make sense to me at all!

i want to get out of the Dallas/fort worth area for a while. but where would i go? Cali? NY? fl? aspen? the options are endless, but i can never get myself to just go! i don't see why i haven't traveled the world....I'm single, I'm not attached to anyone, i have a job, i don't have very many bills, i should be jet setting every weekend! i think I'm just so ready for change! I'm ready for something! other than what I'm doing right now. i don't want to be doing what i do day in and day out anymore. theres got to be something more.... I'm so tired of feeling like I'm going no where, where I'm at right now, its just...nothing. i wake up go to work, go to school, study, eat, drink and sleep! and part of it is because i have no one to share it with. I'm so content being single right now, but sometimes i wonder if ill ever find someone to enjoy my life with. will it ever happen to me? my life is going really good right now and i don't need someone else to 'complete me' but it would be nice to have someone (other than my parents) wonder where i am when i don't come home after work, or to call and say goodnight, or just share a really funny moment that happened. im not ready to love someone i dont have the strength to stand with that thought, i just want someone to have fun with....other than going to bars and drinking. i can honestly say that i dont want a boyfriend, but i want some company. its getting lonely. im getting lonely. but i know im not ready to share my entire life with someone else, im still to selfish for that. but im ready for something. something more adult.

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