Writing Away

Tomorrow I start my crash diet! I have 73 days till Vegas which means I gotta get my body into shape and I gotta do it fast! LA Fitness...check, diet pills...check...lots of water...check, meals for breakfast lunch dinner with snacks in between...check check! So here goes nothin! I hate working out, I hate dieting and I for sure hate everything else in between, but sadly I am not high school hot anymore....in order for me to have a bangin body like i use to I actually have to work at it now. I go up and down with my weight....I'll maintain it for a while, then my mood changes and I get depressed or stressed or whatever and i gain it all back, then i get motivation, since I'm going to be traveling more, I need to be in shape, so now back into having motivation to work out and be more healthy.....why cant i just be 25 with my 21 year old hot bod? its just not fair.....with age comes changes! ill get there...I'm sure of it! VEGAS BABY HERE I COME! YEAH!!! I'm so excited! ...

This is where I'll be for my birthday!! The count down is on!

"You know what's wrong with you, Miss Whoever-you-are? You're chicken, you've got no guts. You're afraid to stick out your chin and say, "Okay, life's a fact, people do fall in love, people do belong to each other, because that's the only chance anybody's got for real happiness." You call yourself a free spirit, a "wild thing," and you're terrified somebody's gonna stick you in a cage. Well baby, you're already in that cage. You built it yourself. And it's not bounded in the west by Tulip, Texas, or in the east by Somali-land. It's wherever you go. Because no matter where you run, you just end up running into yourself."

I just want to start out by saying Happy Fathers Day to all my friends that are Fathers and of course to my own Father. And also, to any of my friends that are mothers that also fill the role of being the father. Ya'll are much appreciated, even if your kids dont always show it in their actions or words. (cough cough...meaning, myself.....) Oh, and did I mentioned i misspelled my own name on my fathers days card....? Okay, so moving forward! Since the whole mess of moving and big to-do about this and that, I have not once tired to unpack any of my things! I am living out of boxes and I'm sort of rebelling against unpacking my things. I dont need to be living out of boxes....I'm not going anywhere till everything is settled, and thats going to take a long time, so I may as well unpack and get on with my life...but no, I'd rather live out of boxes. I came across things I hadn't seen in months, so I kind of figure if I never paid any attention to it while it was out, ...

I dont know how people with kids function. Like it seriously blows my mind. I can't wrap my fingers around how one must juggle a full time job, along with crazy kids. By the time I get off work, I'm so exhausted I dont know if which way is up or down, so most of the time I just head out for happy hour to set me straight. But when you've got kid-os to tend to, you cant go have a pedicure, head to the mall or sit your tired butt down at some bar! Theres not breaks with kids. I can barely remember to feed my dog and go to school at the same time.....and then on top of that hectic schedule have full time job. Seriously.....I have no idea what it takes to have kids, and I'll be frank... I dont see myself having children. I'm way too selfish to share my time. With that said...good day.

I'm a super fan of Miley Cyrus/Hannah Montana and Wizards of Waverly Place. I still watch the Disney channel. I can surf Facebook and play on my iPhone for hours! I love to watch movies that have to do with old fashion sappy love. When most of the time, I like to portray that I am bitter about love and happiness. Yeah, I know... I don't understand it myself either. I twirl my hair when its super soft because it feels good on my fingers. i also twirl my hair when im really tired. I will never say a mean thing to your face. Unless you really tick me off and then I will say something harsh to you and then later I'll feel bad about it. I can not get enough of my audio-books!!! Best invention EVER! I Google myself once a week to make sure nothing new has come up.  I will never play beer-pong during the week. I thought I was going to die. But gosh darn, I am the beer pong QUEEN!!! In your face! Promise! 

There are a lot of changes going on at work. I dont think anyone is safe, but I'm going to keep working hard and pushing forward. There's not much I can do except keep doing my job. I'm crossing my fingers and hoping for the best. I've been so stressed out and busy that I never have time to blog. I think about it all the time, but can never just get a moment to sit down and type. I'm so tired all the time. So, my computer crashed and I lost EVERYTHING that was on my hard drive. I tried to have someone get the information frm my old hard drive but that was unsuccessful. I lost school work, pictures and my book!!! There are also a lot of changes going on with my personal life. My parents and I are once again not getting along. My mom told me to get out last week so I have been staying with a friend of mine. It was one thing when I was younger and able to jump from couch to couch, but I'm too old to be slummin it on someones couch! I have a job that I have...