Writing Away

Right now my favorite thing in the whole wide world is audio books. i listen to books on audio on my iPhone. its really a great thing. and its helped boost my new years resolution! i wanted to read more, but its hard to live your every day hectic life and read at the same time! i can barely chew gym and walk at the same time so reading a book and living my life has been a difficult challenge for me. audio books go hand and hand with my new job. i work on the computer, punch number, push papers, do same thing over and over. so instead of sitting there listening to the voices in my head go back and forth, i have discovered that i can listen to books and work at the same time! buying books on audio are about the same as buying an actual book. i know it kind of takes away from the old schoolness of it but at this point in my life its really convenient. it works for me. and since im so in love with my iPhone anyways it just makes the situation even better! I'm obsessed with Chelsea Ha...

I've changed so much. Who I thought I was, who I believed myself to be, has changed. I've changed before but I've had someone by my side or someone to guide me thru. This time, it's different. Before when I've changed as a person, I never really knew what I wanted. It was like changing with the seasons. Its going to happen, you cant stop it. But this time around, its different. I've changed as a person, I've learned so much about myself that I didn't know about before. And this time, I know what I want. I know what I need. But will I get it. Will I be able to have what I secretly and desperately want. I think I'm too damaged to even be able to handle it. And that scares me. Am I too broken? Will I unknowingly but consciously sabotage myself in order to protect myself from getting hurt by anyone or even myself? Im unsure and my head is cloudy but it's clear as day at the same time.