Writing Away

waking up to the snow today made me really happy! seeing snow in general makes me happy. but.... seeing it from inside gaylord hotel made me even more happy because it was a cool 72 degrees and I didnt have to freeze my booty off to enjoy it! :) i really wish i had gotten some pictures because watching the snow from inside out was really pretty, it was like a snow globe...but opposite...im not sure that made any sense.  i was on the 4th floor over looking riverwalk cantina, a view from the top. and the room was quit nice! from what i can remember ;) what made the room wonderful were the curtains. keep the curtains closed and a person could sleep all day and not see a ray of sunshine, or in my case today...snow. if i could have i probably would have stayed in bed all day, but sadly, i couldn't.  thank goodness i was able to utilize all 8 pillows, because at the comfort of my own bed, i have 6 pillows . i was really worried that i would have to settle for only 4 pillows. wal...

Happy 2011 everyone! Hope everyone had a safe and happy Christmas and rang in the new year with a BANG! This was the first year that I didn't go out. I was home doing laundry and cleaning my room at midnight. Pretty sure I was in bed by midnight. I sent out a few text to my closest friends and family, but I didn't go all mass text on everyone.   Part of the reason, I stayed in was because I had to be at work at the crack of dawn on Saturday. Sadly my alarm clock did not go off at 630a and I woke up just in time to NOT be late to work. I was rushed and didn't enjoy my morning commute. Although, I must say...waking up sober on new years day was amazing. My head wasn't pounding, I didn't feel like I was about to hurl all over the place and the sun was not hurting my face. I had gotten enough sleep and I felt refreshed. I can't say the same for some of my co-workers. We had 6 no shows no calls and one still very drunkard person calling in...well...still drunk. Satur...

for new years, i plan on staying in. partly because i have to work friday night till 8ish and then saturday morning at 830 IN THE AM! bless our supervisors and their schedule making, but seriously...how can you schedule 20 something year olds and except them to come into work sober?? on new years? not going to happen, what will happen are people are going to come in late or not come in at all, OR come in still wasted.... I, this year...I am going to to stay in. For the first time in EVER, I dont want to go out for new years. I just want to be home in bed at midnight and go to work in the morning without a massive head injury that i call a hangover. i just cant handle hangovers anymore. being sick and on the brink of death just doesnt seem fun to me anymore. and the recovery time takes longer for me now. i dont know what it is about age, but it really does catch up to you. recovery takes longer, energy and tolerance are not the same anymore either! being sick right before christmas ...

WRONG!!! I shouldnt have said that EVERYTHING WAS GOING TO BE OKAY!!! Because it's NOT!! FML!

I had no idea just how depressed I was till now. Looking at me you would never guess what kind of torture I felt inside....Makes you wonder just how many other people out there are faking it just to make it thru life! Being sad and living in my past with regrets and what ifs'. What a waste of my time! 4 years later I'm finally realizing this! My last 'relationship' was in 2005, but if we want to be technical I can be. 2005, my high school sweetheart and I broke up because our relationship just went sour and I became someone I never want to be ever AGAIN! We had been together since 2002. So that he was a HUGE part of my life. 2005-2006 I thought I had found the love of my life, but he didn't return the feelings, no where near my feelings, we were not on the same page, not even the same book! so I had to take myself out of that relationship. Walking away from someone that I  thought was my future really TORE me up inside! I have replayed this relationship in my head...

2010 in review.... Jan- I partied so hard new years eve eve, on new years eve i was the only sober person in the entire club, because i was still hung over from the night before. and received no new years eve kiss because i was too sober to make out with a drunkard. (i guess thats a good thing?) feb- got my wisdom teeth removed, quit my job, started working with my friend charlotte and i ran my car into my friends boyfriends truck. march - june: i guess nothing i did was much of importance, since i cant seem to remember anything! i was pretty much wrapped up in work, school, weddings, birthdays, engagement parties, bridal showers, baby showers, paying bills, making sure to hang out with the right people, chillin with friends... and being a good person. :) july- signed for my new apartment and then....got laid off from my job....  august- pretty much the same as march- june.... made it thru the summer in one peice... job hunting sucks!  september- My birthday month!!! Th...

(not sure if this is the signature I want to use...still a work in progress...)  (a little disappointed that my ring didn't show up as much as it should have! but im still learning!) Introducing Gus!  Josh and Charlotte's new puppy! OLD English Bull dog!  Thank you for making me...god Mother! :)