Writing Away

...to my blackberry! it can't put the damn thing down! i want to so badly but i cant, if i do, then I'm for sure going to miss out on something, i don't know what id miss out on since its not going anywhere, but i know i would. what have i done?! the best decision in my life is becoming my obsession. is that a bad thing? at least its my blackberry....it could be food (which comes in a very close 2nd) jeans, shoes, purses, makeup, liquor, beer, men...the list could go on but i think you get my point... I think I have a problem (other than my blackberry)....I am so torn up about a past relationship I haven't been able to move on from it. And this relationship ended badly, like I'm talking seriously bad. I don't know if it's something that Ive worked up in my head, but I cant get a grip on things and just let it go! I'm a very smart person, i know when I'm being rejected and I know how to stay away from being hurt. I can sense when things are going to...

I'm driving home today from work...i decided to stop and get some food before heading home. I really didn't need to stop and spend money on food, but i just wanted to stuff my face with some unhealthy food today. it was a ruf day and rather than stopping by somewhere for happy hour, i thought id just eat. so im ordering....i notice the weather is starting to look REALLY bad, but of course im eating so im not paying attention to anything else but getting my food into my mouth....out of no where it starts to turn and its like tornado like weather! im on 377 just passin the walmart ...my mom works there, i should stop and just hang out there till the storm passes...nah, ill make it....lets just make sure to call the house to make sure someone is home so im not home alone during this storm...call no one answers...call my little brother....nothing...call my dad nothing...finally call my sister (and remember I'm still driving and eating) my sister picks up.....yeah i shou...

....with $150,00?! yeah that's right....so i happen to land this account at work....$$300,000+. I'm still not sure what to think of this....but its true. i got the account, but since its such a huge account i have had to split it with a prim. rep. its better than nothing. i mean O M G! i knew this job had potential to make tons of money, but i didn't know just how much. i cant wrap my brain around how much money this actually is! i have never in my entire life had this much money at one time EVER! after this account i don't think ill go back to work for while..no im totally kidding. of course ill keep working! ill be driving my caddy any day now along with sportin my new boobs! im so excited! although...my chest has kind of grown on its own. i might not need it...but back to the money.....what does one do with this kind of money? pay bills, buy a car, take a vacation, new wardrobe, all new shoes, purses....one might invest....put it into savings....but......we all kn...